Livejournal is dead anymore... like the only people i really see posting ad's and new shit added to livejournal, it gets pretty old.

this weekend i think there is a her versus the atlantic show with all the other bands that broke up... that should be funny, diffrent, and memorable. so i guess if you don't have nothing else to do come out and watch us play. uhmm yea and also myspace is being really emo = gay, i'm just close to cancalling my account like i have a profile on there for like no reason anymore. i mean yea it's cool here and there but it's w/e anymore. i guess this is my "update" well i guess comment if you relize how board you are.

Peace, Love, and Guitar.

This summer i thought was the definition of love... As most of you know me and anna were dating or somthing... we had our fights or hissy fits at times. everything started to get harder when it became to get closer to school stress started to come earlier for me... b/c i was really close of losing anna. and anna was the one i thought for me and she meant everything. she was my first for alot of thing and alot of my feeelings went in to her. i've changed i know.. i you shouldn't change for no one b/c they should love you for who and what you are. i loved anna and that was the greatest thing i thought i could is to love some one. but it's all diffrent when that someone doesn't love you back it seems like. i put all my freinds aside for anna and i'm sorry you guys... us guys is suppose to stay by a quote... "Bros Before Hoes" well i let that go. every guy has to let that one slide sometimes b/c there is a few couple out there that are really close and they can't really say that. i also got told tonight that your brothers will always be there but your hoes come and go. well i'm not saying anna is a hoe i'm not going to say anna was anything... anna was i thought was a great girl to me and i love her to death and it hurts knowing i'm not with her even though i'm not going to try to show it at school or anything i still love anna but thats going to be there for awhile and it's going to take me awhile for this one b/c like i said meant a whole to me and if i let it bother me.. just let it b/c i'll get over it like i try to do anything else let it go. but out of anyone. i apologize to derek the most b/c he was the one that got put aside more than anyone b/c i was at his house on the phone with anna all the time. i couldn't help i love anna and she has totally changed my life. but i do apologize to all my friends that i did put aside. if you are in a relationship your partner will always change you no matter what b/c you want to be perfect for them. and you will be diffrent to your friends b/c your more straight forward to your partner than you are having fun b/c you always want to have fun but you want to be all you can to your partner. but only your true freinds can understand how much your partner really means to you to let them put you aside for a day or for a time or two. b/c i've learned so much in this relationship it's been a real rollercoaster ride. i've been more upset and pissed and mad than i'll ever be in my life. love hurts more than you can imagine , don't let anyone get in between the one you love. no matter who it is, it only fucks up somthing like that happens. but as some of you might know now that me and anna got into it tonight and it's fucked up night. i thank the ones that have been there for me in this relationship there is alot of you... but the time i needed you've been there and talked to me.. thats what freinds are for and i respect that and i'll be there for yall if you need me. but i'm going to need some time to try to back away from anna so if you can try to not to bring it up... but it doesn't hurt me to here b/c i can get rid of thinking about it if i talk about it to some one. thanks for reading if you did...

Peac, Love, Guitar

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Her vs. the atlantic
The Catholic and the Beards
A Riot Named Rodney King
In Memory of Me

Jackson's basement
Time Unknown
Admission price unknown

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hey,
it's been awhile since i've updated. but there has been so much happening like i'm talking to this wonderful girl name anna and i haven't been this happy in so long like.. idk she means alot to me. we are going to hopfully kick it off in the summer time. and i'm going to so busy with alot of things. the band and anna.. those are most important things in my life.. i love anna so much i'm really happy i can't tell you how much. but i'm going shopping with her this evening and i hope we have a wonderful time. idc what happens only if that one things isn't bad. :). the band is going good we recruited julian sanchez. so he is part of the band family. well i'll keep trying to update LJ. but with anna and the band going it'll be a tight squeeze. but i better head out cya her love ya ppl.

I LOVE ANNA! <3

WEll we have a show tommrow Her Versus The Atlantic!

Our myspace is http://www.myspace.com/herversustheatlantic

Pictures and Calender there. Go Add Us.

uhmm but other than that.. i love amy!<3 :p amy is a cool cat..

Ok.. i haven't update this bitch in a long time..but omfg.. the girl i have liked in 3 months i just found out she is a fucking bi. ok i can't stand bi's, gays or blacks.. this is a fucking shock to me. b/c i mean she wasen't. i guess ever since she kissed kieths ex.. she was like i'm bi.. thats fucking wierd and GAY! i mean AHHHH GROSS.. i can't ever find a girl that likes me that isn't OVER SIZED or bi or anything.. it makes me sick.. lmao this is gross i swear to god that makes me think if almost everyone is bi b/c ever time i turn there is a GAY OR A BI O R LESBAIN. WTF MATE!?!well i guess i could always do better..




The band Calender.

May 5th Hoxie Community Center 7 pm

May 20th Leachville The Melondy 6pm? This show is pending...


Stephen Turner - Vocals

Brandon Reed - Vocals/Guitar

Jake Robertson - Bass

Jackson Sifford - Drums

Give Us Some Support.

Love Ya All.

I have the best life ever.. I don't think I have ever been so happy, and I don't know what has made me this happy. Amy Lashay McCluskey is my best friend, and she is always there for me. She's the best.. and I love her to death. I drew a pretty picture yesterday. It also made me very happy inside.. Well, I suppose I will end it here.. I basically have nothing else on my mind besides my awesome best friend Amy, pretty pictures, and cuddly bunnies. I'm sure you don't want to hear about any of it.

Last Night and This Morning was like the best mixture in a long thanks to. Paula, Stephen, Matt, Anthony, Charles, Keith, and Ying

Sometimes i don't think it is even worth it anymore.


































(life)

Well i'm at home sick right now i have a sinus infection and the stuff hurts big time.. and right now i have this pounding headache.. ahhhh i'm about to go insane. but i'll more than likely go to the The Wedding and Kingsdown concert this weekend. b/c i don't won't to see any drama at anywhere else and if somthing happens at the show i can take of it there and all. so i'll deal with that instead of somthing really crazy. I'm a little donwn and out right now like i next monday i'm going to start my pshcology help and i wonder how that'll be.. = / and there is some things right now thats really confusing like idk what to do anymore like i want to make the right decisions and what i do and not a mess up like i would do. i've been talking to paula about all my problems and she has helped me out alot... we talked about alot of things last night and i really thank you for that b/c i don't know nothing else could have made more happier than to talk about my problems with her. b/c these last few months.. well it hasen't been the healthiest months of my life.. i would say somthing but they kind of personal and there is a hand full of ppl that know what i'm talking about.. and there is other ppl that know what else is up with me. Paula is a big help to me right now i know i can't stop talking about her. but she has really helped me and she has made me relize some things in life is there for a reason and that everything is not perfect i mean i knew that but i'm talking about the little things that could be perfect but isn't. like this weekend is going to be hurtful to a quite of few of us. i thought i was going to adam's and bj's to party but there was going to major drama there. and i sure in the hell don't want more drama as there is with me now. i hope hanging out with ppl this weekend will make feel better. and also everyone hero9 show friday in hoxie i'll there i have to since i'm working sound if you need ride say somthing to me about it and i'll be sure to do my best of job and get you a ride there and back. well idk much what else to say. if you want to ask me ?'s call me. uhmm i'm guess i'm out of here .

<3<3<3<3<3
Thanks For My Friends That's Been There For Me.


HH - Language Lesson


I hope this song can tell you how I feel tonight
You are my first dissection spilling my insides
Lets write our names with the blood that's in our cheeks
So it won't wash away if I don't come home for weeks

If I don't come home...

I never said (never said)
This would be easy
I let her go when she said she was leaving
So whisper softly
And don't forget
To tell me how you feel in five words or less

I knew I should have never offered you the world
The nights are full of faces you're the only girl
Turn my world from disaster
Make my heart stop beating faster
Ask the question, here's the answer
I need you now and I can't stand this

I never said (never said)
This would be easy
I let her go when she said she was leaving
So whisper softly
And don't forget
To tell me how you feel in five words or less

Just tell me how you feel...
I need your voice tonight...
Just tell me how you feel...
Whoa, whoa...

So whisper softly and don't forget
To tell me how you feel in five words or less

I never said (never said)
This would be easy
I let her go when she said she was leaving
So whisper softly
And don't forget
To tell me how you feel in five words or less


Dashboard Confessinal - A Plain Morning

It's yet to be determined,
but the air is thick,
and my hope is feeling worn.
I'm missing home,
and I'm glad you're not a part of this,
there's parts of me that will be missed.
And the phone is always dead to me,
so I can't tell you the temperature is dropping
and it feels like.

It's colder than it ought to be in March
and I still got a day or two ahead of me
till I'll be heading home,
into your arms again.
And the people here are asking after you.
It doesn't make it easier.
It doesn't make it easier to be away.(to be away)

I'd like to hire a plane.(a plane)
I'd see you in the morning, (morning)
when the day is fresh.
I'm coming home again. (I'm coming home again)
Coming home again. (again)
Coming home again. (again)
When the day is fresh,
I'm coming home again.(I'm coming home again)

But it's warmer where you're waiting.
It feels more like July.
There's pillows in their cases,
and one of those is mine.
And you wrote the words "I love you",
and sprayed it with perfume.
It's better than the fire is
to heat this lonely room.
It's warmer where you're waiting
It feels more like July.
It feels more like July.

It's yet to be determined,
but the air is thick,
and my hope is feeling worn.
I'm missing home,
and I'm glad you're not a part of this,
there's parts of me that will be missed.
And the phone is always dead to me,
so I can't tell you the temperature is dropping
and it feels like.

It's colder than it ought to be in March
and I still got a day or two ahead of me
till I'll be heading home,
into your arms again.
And the people here are asking after you.
It doesn't make it easier. (easier)
It doesn't make it easier to be away.(to be away)

I'd like to hire a plane.(a plane)
I'd see you in the morning, (morning)
when the day is fresh.
I'm coming home again. (I'm coming home again)
Coming home again. (again)
Coming home again. (again)
When the day is fresh,
I'm coming home again.(I'm coming home again)

lol dude i was just fuckin around.. i do it to everyone eventually (its all random).. i mean i dont even really know u enough to say ne of those things but i have no reason to like u or not like u. like u said u really havent done ne thing. naw man i really wasnt folin u around at all i just noticed u were at these places. imean after skool i normally w8 on cody or keith by the gates so i see u , erica, and several others that dont realize im there. this is just one of my random acts of bein a dum ass and an asshole
... sry ... im bored again next is gonna be ******* *****..lol

Well lets see i'm really pissed off right now i'm trying to keep my cool in front of ppl. this freakin dutche bag named Joey Criter... i mean sirously i didn't do nothing to this dude and he wants to freak on on me.. he is freakin wierd dude and i want to kill him so bad.. And This is what he said... hey bitch whats up?? oh fuckin ur b/f.well i wont interfere. brandon u need to remove the stupid mask.. u look like some cowboy wannabe.. but u r gay so guess the "save a horse ride a cowboy" comes into play there.. u fuckin guy ass mother fucker. i try to hard to act kool in fact.. u act like a queer. u fuckin dum ass.. u think ur friends really like u... well u fuckin fag .. what do u think. they like u cuz u think they think ur kool.. hell fuckin NO!!!!!! besides wants with the fucking back ground on ur pic there.. so that ur moms room?? o w8 i know it's ur parents room.. and ur dressed up like a cowboy to fuck ur dad............. so that makes u a gay incest fuck up?!?!?!?! my fuckin god.. whats wrong with u lil gay ass mother fucker.. and what the hell is with hells bells by acdc(another sign of a flamin queer). and why the goofy ass... let me correct myself GAY ASS pictures just another object pointing at complete gayness. the fuckin retard.. u deserve to die. u god damn fuck up. god ur whoever the fuck is up there really messed up on u. my fuck god ur pix make u like a retarded gay ass incested queer. omfg ur funny kid i'll give that ....... NOT ... none of ur jokes at skool r anywhere near funny. ppl laugh b/c how stupid u sound. and i know at skool tomorrow ur goin to be walkin around actin all hard and shit sayin "some kid said 'blah' and said i was'blah'" or some shit like that.. when u try to act hard u make urself look weak u gay ass lil guy. i mean wtf ur more than likely still a fuckin virgin .. u know y..... b/c u act so fuckin stupid the girls dont like that ... so thats y u went guy... and i know ur goin to try to get back at me with some kinda stupid gay ass incest mother fucker line at skool or on here.... more than likely u'll do it on here b/c ur scared of finding the wrong person at skool and lookin like a complete dum ass incested queer. b/c thats ur stlye 'to look and sound so kool... but god damn think... u stupid bitch.. i know its hard for u to do but try.......... who am i .. if ur so good and so "bad ass"( ya right) try and find me bitch.. i'll leave u a message everyday til u find me..lol this is goin to be a fun game. cya l8r, Zero_Popular PS: fag.....lol I see you everyday... Another sign of a queer.. i hate gays ... including ones like you that are still in the closet.. I wouldn't want u to fuck with me anyways. I'm not like that (gay) .. I see you everyday morning in the commons, going to your classes, afterschool walking to your POS car. with some hag there to take you home for a good father and son incest chat. , and i saw you today in vo-tech. and what kinda come back is "well im not ypur match"?!?!?! thats not right... i know its hard for u but just think alil. i guess ill play alil game with u. im an outcast at school, and im friends of one of your friends that isnt one of ur friends anymore, and they arent ur friend anymore b/c like me they just dont like u. now the question is who am i??

Wow. Last Ngiht Was Amazing.. I mean Hawthorne Heights, Emery, June, Bleed The Dream, And Rising Sun... Shit it was great i mean when emery got on stage everyone went crazy.. even me i was like O SHIT HELLS YEA.. but then the down was when HH came up on stage ppl were moshing.... like wtf! NEVER MOSH.. NEVER unless it's slam dancing or 2 stepping.. b/c your gay if you push and shove...but everything went ok i tried to get a autograph for paula but i couldn't i feel bad. i tried but there was so many ppl sorry paula = /. well i guess this is it for now.. Cya.

Love Ya Everyone.

Greekstock Schedule Thursday,
March 2 Band Time On
Dark Embrace 4:30
Hero 9 5:00
Affectus 5:30
Badger Nash 6:00
The Public Mood 6:30
Painbreak 7:20
Fallen Within 7:55
Vision Tongue 8:35
Petalshelf 9:20
Further Down 10:05

Friday, March 3 Band Time On
This World This Grave 5:00
After the Altar 5:30
Heart for a Hand 6:00
Erasing the Disguise 6:30
Pictures of Echoes 7:00
Tragic Stories End 7:40 PM today 8:20
Audio Kinetic Assault 9:00
Dreamfast 9:45
Allusive 10:15
Kingsdown 11:15
After the Tragedy 12:05

This last weekend and this week has treated me so bad i hate this so bad i mean it's like when somthing good happen it seems like somthing comes right back and smacks myself right in the face. like i met this girl named misty and she is really attractive i think and i said she was and she told her freinds that i was pretty cute. well i wanted to date her so bad i asked to come down to jonesboro and be with some ppl and me at bj's house. well ened up didn't talk not one time and that sucks really bad when you really like some one and you get teansed and shy at the same while they are in the same room.. thats over. but i've found that i'm really really depressed b/c i've talked to paula when i talk to her she said i mmore than likley going through depression.. but i think i'm Pretty bad b/c it's been going so far with this i think i've been depressed every since my last relationship.. idk why b/c i forgot that past or tried. but when shit happens to others it seems like it gets worse to me b/c my friends or "friend" gets hurt really bad or somthing happens to them.. and i love all my friends. Paula, Derek, Stephen, Julian, Lizz, Matt, Keith, John, Kim, Jeff, Mark, Katie, Trai, Cassi, B.J., Adam, Anthony, Charles, Chris, Victoira (welcome back) and very Few more. And thank everyone that has been there for me when i have times gone real bad for me, i will be there for you guys and girls anytime yall would need me I love you my friends. I wonder whats going to happen to me tommrow.. Throwdown concert.. well it's more than likley cancelled for me see the tommrow has already started for me.. this month makes me sick.. <3<3<3





THURSDAY

Splintered piece of glass falls, in the seat, gets caught
These broken windows, open locks, reminders of the youth we lost
In trying so hard to look away from you
we followed white lines to the sunset
I crash my car everyday the same way

Time to let this pass
(the time it takes, the time it takes to let go)
Time runs through our veins.
(it starts and stops and starts and stops again)
We don't stand a chance in this threadbare time
(the time it takes, the time it takes to let go)
Time to let this pass
(the time it takes, the time it takes to let go)

Staring at the setting sun
No reason to come back again
The twilight world in blue and white
The needle and the damage done

I don't want to feel this way forever
A dead letter marked return to sender

The broken watch you gave me turns into a compass
It's two hands still point to the same time 12:03, our last goodbye

So push the seats back a little further
I can see the headlights coming
So push the seats back a little further
Roll the windows down and take a breath
I can see the headlights coming
They paint the world in red and broken glass

Time to let this pass
(the time it takes, the time it takes to let go)
Time runs through our veins.
(it starts and stops and starts and stops again)
We don't stand a chance in this threadbare time
(the time it takes, the time it takes to let go)
Time to let this pass
(the time it takes, the time it takes to let go)

Staring at the setting sun
No reason to come back again
The twilight world in blue and white
The needle and the damage done

I don't want to feel this way forever
A dead letter marked return to sender

The spinning hubcaps set the tempo, for the music of the broken window
The Cameras on and the cameras click
We open up the lens and can't stop

Staring at the setting sun
No reason to come back again
The twilight world in blue and white
The needle and the damage done

I don't want to feel this way forever

The lights are on and the cameras click
We open up the lens (to broken glass!)

Staring at the setting sun (And it's over!)
No reason to come back again (In a flash!)
The twilight world in blue and white (and I'll never!)
The needle and the damage done (ever understand!)

I don't want to feel this way forever (Understanding!)
(In a Car Crash!) A dead letter marked return to sender (In a Car Crash!)
(In a Crash!) In a Crash!


THURSDAY

Let's call this the quiet city:
Where screams are felt as a wave of stoplights
Drive through the streets as gunshots punctuate the night
The sides we take divide us from our faith
And the morning dove gets caught in the telephone wire

Asleep you set the fire in your own house
And the night was a knife that cut
And I'm paralyzed

Cross out the eyes
Blur all the lines
Tearing this canvas from the wall
We crossed out the eyes
Put lines through these cries
We pulled all the leaves from the trees that fall

A silent dance that we did into this hospital bed
Hear voices from another room
"It happens all the time"
But July in the sand
The leaves falling
And counting down our days to live....
Drain the blood from this valentine.

"We can rise on the wings of the dove
See blue skies getting caught in the trail of all this smoke
We can rise like candles in the dark-yours always"
and an envelope marked with your new address

Asleep you set the fire in your own house
And the night was a knife that cut
And I'm paralyzed

Cross out the eyes
Blur all the lines
Tearing this canvas from the wall
We crossed out the eyes
Put lines through these cries
We pulled all the leaves from the trees that fall

It was the first time face to face
I'm crossing the line
Talking to the other side of death
Hearing the words that choke memories into flatlines
I'm calling your name hoping for something to wash these dreams of you away
(can't we die!)

(memories in flatlines!)

Cross out the eyes with a set of these lines
Cross out the eyes with a set of these lines!

(cross out the eyes!)
Our fence was blown down in a winter storm and this field
(Cross out the eyes!)
Stretches out of this world into the sound
(A trace of)
What can we do to put a stop to these coming white days
(A love song)
I'm hoping the snow will wash these dreams of you away

(Stretches out of this world,
let's drive back the dead.
Stretches out of this world.
Stretches out of this world.)

Wow what a new years dude, like i stink, i'm sore, and i'm extremly tired from the fucking crazyness that went on at the party. there was a lot ppl that came i'm guessing 12 ppl? if someone knows correct me. well on this tiring day is very cloudy and is kinda warm for winter. But I guess other than that it was great. so yea well i guess i'm off i'm really tired and i need a shower so i'll keep yall up dated. OOOO shit and i almost forgot i'm so fucking pissed. i fucking drank alcholic egg nog so that means i broke fucking edge i'm pissed about that so i guess i might talk to jimmie about it. ok now i'm going later peace!

Love Yall, Happy New Years

2 DVD's

Four Brother's
Juice

14 CD's

UnderOath (Old & New)
As I Lay Dying (Old & New)
Evergreen Terrace (Old & New)
Comeback Kid (Old & New)
Emery
Terror
Haste The Day (Old & New)
Throwdown (Old & New)

A Chinese Platform Bed

A Cell Phone

Getting a Xbox 360

2 swords

Bandana's

Throwdown Sweater

Striaght Edge Shirt
I Think Thats It

Hey, Well the break is here that everyone wanted. Chirstmas break is very sexy but the most sexiest thing ever is that i passed all my semester test and that i passed all my classes so i got all the credits that where availible for the classes. thats sexy, but the best thing will be when there is a party at derek's house thats when the shit is going to be great. with everyone there and hopfully getting along with everyone else. And it isn't a party without some guitars and some music so yea me, myself, and I is going to be bringing the geetar muhaha. well i love all my friends so i'll ttyl Peace!

HELLS YEA,
TODAY IS THE DAY TO GET CRAZY AT THE COMPLEX! Evergreen Terrace, The Chariot, As Cities Burn, Maylene, and The Sons of Disaster! holy shit is going to get fucking insane. i'm fixing to take a shower and get ready for that i'm going to put on my dancing shoes o you damn right, old school vans. i'm a crazy mother fucker negros don't know nothing about this hells no they don't i'll see EVRYONE AT THE SHOW RAHHHHHHH!!

I don't know really why i made a new live journal. but i'm kinda like derek on this one because my old one brings back memories that i left behind and that should stay behind. but yea everything is gong good right now. i have a band right now called Ashes Beneath so thats going good, and then i'm getting a new started it's a soft rock kinda of band.

Sunday!
Omg, I can not fucking wait no longer for this concert this is going to be like the best concert every swear to god, o well if i get stabbed haha. Evergreen Terrace is going to be the shit and i heard the chariot is alright so thats pretty sweet, at least it isn't a gay band playing that night.

Next Week!
Wow already it's the beginning of x mas. i hate this time of year every is flip shitting and bitching for like no damn apparent reason so thats a big WTF? but yea one more week of school then semester test sighs* bummer, so i hope i do good so i can get all my credit's and my car and to play baseball for JHS give me something else to do. well this is a weekly update you could say i'll talk to everyone later!

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